“You are the God who performs miracles.” Psalm 77:14a
Do you believe in miracles? Let me tell you, I sure do! I have seen them happen countless times. God has been so faithful to me and to my family that I have come to almost expect miracles to happen. Sure, I have my moments of doubt – we all do. But at the end of the day, I know that miracles have happened to me and I know that more will happen to me in the future.
My biggest miracles are the ones that come through both of my children. Clay’s mere existence is a miracle. I couldn’t get pregnant, and Donnie and I had tried for so long. Then He blessed us with Clay. Then Clay’s first several years of life were pretty scary. He had some health problems, which included a problem with his blood, which led us to finding out that his belly was so acidic that lots of food hurt him. Then when he turned 3, God blessed us with a miracle of calming his belly down enough that we could stop all the medication he was on. We still needed to avoid acidic food, but that was no big deal compared to what we had been dealing with so far.
Then Cora’s existence in our lives is a miracle too. This little girl, born thousands of miles away from us, God orchestrated and created her for our family, and He formed our family just for her. She is meant to be here. She is perfectly designed by God to be Clay’s little sister, as well as be just the daughter God needs for us to have. Her personality and even some very quirky things about her are exactly like me. We share no DNA whatsoever, but this little girl is a whole lot like her Mommy.
And as you know, since Cora came home over 2 1/2 years ago, she has been dealing with a lot of medical problems. She was diagnosed with Periventricular Leukomalacia (or, PVL), and we were told she was considered “moderate to severe”. We were told that she would never walk, run, or dance. She would never lead a normal life. She even went on a few months later to getting a feeding tube because she can’t regulate her hunger cues or work her muscles correctly to eat and drink an appropriate amount. That was a tough year for us, but with God sustaining us, looking back, we see all the miracles that occurred. Six months after her PVL diagnosis, she took her first steps, and within no time, she was running. As I type this now, she’s playing on the swing-set with her brother running between the swing and the slide. She seems so very normal to me, and most people might look at her and not think twice about her behavior, but I’m watching a miracle.
Also, tomorrow will be Cora’s very first dance recital. Cora has been dancing since before she could walk. She would wiggle to the music in her car seat when we would go places in the car. She would sit in my lap in church and “dance” to the music. I knew that if we could ever get her walking, as soon as she was old enough, I needed to put her in a dance class. So last fall, I put her in a ballet and tap dance class. At first, she just stood there watching everyone else. I kept asking her teacher if she was just too young, and she told me to be patient, and she was sure Cora would dance. Then after the first month of just taking it all in, Cora started doing what the other little girls were doing. She would even come home and show Donnie and me her dance moves that she had learned, and she even “bows” after her living room performances. So as I sit in that school auditorium tomorrow, along with hundreds of other parents watching their kids dance, many of them will be proud and be glad their kid is doing well, but I’m going to have tears knowing that I’m witnessing a miracle. Once again, God delivers.
Well we’re on the cusp of more miracles going on in our lives, and I’m asking something of you, my readers. We need your prayers! I want to absolutely flood the gates of Heaven with prayers for these miracles, and I have faith that God will hear and answer our prayers. For the past few weeks, Clay has been consuming small amounts of citrus, something that he has not ever been able to do because it causes him such terrible belly pain. His GI doctor told us that if a person is going to outgrow the extreme version of reflux that he has, he would have outgrown it by age one. If he still had it at age one, then this would be something he would deal with forever. But we think God has other plans than what some human “expert” says on the matter. At 6 1/2 years old, Clay really might be outgrowing the reflux. Only time will tell. He’s handled the small amounts he’s been consuming for the past few weeks, and we’re slowly working our way up. He still hasn’t eaten any oranges (just things with citric acid, like candy and capri-sun), but this is something he has ALWAYS wanted to eat because in his words, “They smell sooooo good, I wish I could eat them.” Nothing is too big for God. I believe Clay is going to eat oranges one day very soon and love them, and I hope and pray they don’t hurt his belly.
The second miracle I hope and pray is happening is with Cora. She has had her feeding tube now for over two years. She has gone through cycles before where she eats nothing or eats a little. She has had cycles where she eats as much as 500 calories in a day, which is 50% of what she needs. A few months ago, around Christmas, her medication got really messed up, and she was refusing to eat because her belly felt so gross. Insurance was being a big pain, and she wasn’t getting what she needed. I had to go to bat for her, because as her mom, that’s what I do. I spent countless hours on the phone with the insurance company and the doctor’s office, and around February, she was finally getting the medication her body needs, and she was feeling better enough that she started eating and drinking some again. And since February, she has been eating a little bit more and more, and I started cutting out tube feedings here and there. About a month ago, I was tube feeding her twice a day, and I was so scared that she had lost weight, but after a trip to the doctor for some out of control eczema, we found out she had GAINED weight since her last weigh-in at Christmas. Amazing! Then after that, she started eating even more, and for the past week, I haven’t tube fed her at all!!! I’ve never been able to go this long without tube feeding her, but she has been eating and drinking like any normal 3-year-old would.
So here’s what I need from all of you amazing prayer warriors. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray that this isn’t just one of her “cycles” where she’ll eventually go back to eating nothing, but pray that this is all the new trend and things really are improving. She has to go at least a full year of no tube feeds for the doctors (and me!) to be ready to take out the feeding tube. Her GI doctor wants her to be sick at least once and not get dehydrated before taking the tube out. But after all that I have seen and witnessed, I believe God can and will heal this child to the point that she can sustain herself by mouth.
And PLEASE pray that we can continue giving Clay more and more acidic foods without it hurting his belly!
Let’s all witness these miracles together!!